Let me start by saying thank you to everyone who donated regarding my sickness. I’m not back to work yet in terms of doing emails and admin stuff but when I am I will reply to each of you personally.

The last two and a quarter years in my life have been very difficult for me and I have had to make some very hard personal decisions in my private life. Most of that I haven’t spoken about, so unless we are friends in real life you won’t know much about that – that part is private and sacred I won’t talk about it on YouTube, ever. Part of the reason this period has been so difficult for me is because I have been forced to learn that I am the most important person in my world, and that I have to put myself first in order to be happy and well.

During this difficult time I lost much of my creativity and because of this doing my work became a struggle; something I had to force rather than it be spontaneous and effortless, as it used to be. There were even many times I wanted to quit YouTube altogether or to sell out and get someone else to make content for me, just so I could make money.

But good changes also came as a result of my life difficulties (and believe me when I say these difficulties were HARD) – I became more real, and I dropped my video persona. If you compare older videos to more recent ones, you will see the difference. I see that as huge progress – to become a real person rather than a fake persona and to be totally comfortable with that.

On a practical level, there were also big challenges to face which in fact have not been resolved. I stopped teaching English on my Jade Joddle channel about 2 years ago, but yet many people who follow that channel think that what I am doing there is teaching English. This is not the case really. I teach about speech and pronunciation sometimes, but not learning English as a broader subject. All the old videos about learning English are still there, but it is not what I do anymore. Everything to do with learning English is on my other channel, English Jade. The result of this is confusion: people expect one thing (learning English) which is not what I am giving them.


Now my life is straightening out and I am recovering I can see more clearly what it is I want to do on my Jade Joddle channel. That channel is about self-expression, the psychology of speech and my observations of life, such as in this video. I also have an interest in poetry so I will keep that aspect of things going too. I want to explore all emotions in my video work and to be a real person, warts and all. I know that this channel will never be a big money maker because most people in general don’t want to watch that kind of thing and in fact don’t get the level of authenticity it requires. Never mind, this is a creative decision, not a business decision. My EngVid channel will also continue with new English lessons on the way.

I am also starting a totally new project that will not be on YouTube. This project is still incubating now but it will be about me connecting with people in real life and documenting the experience. When the time is right, I’ll tell you about it and you can decide if you want to follow me into my new beginning, new life cycle. It will be something completely new, a fresh start and nothing to do with the old.

I am recovering but the time is still not right for me to return to YouTube. I’m incubating; the eggs are cooking!