For most of the nearly 4 years I have been on YouTube I did not reply to any comments and I had the comments on my blog closed. I also ignored most of the emails I received from viewers. The reason I did not reply to emails was because it kept happening that one email reply to a fan would turn into an email tsunami in which they would keep writing me long, […]
I have not been formally diagnosed with Asperger’s Syndrome. This post lists the traits of Asperger’s Syndrome in women and gives commentary on my personal experience. To view the original, full list of Asperger’s traits in women, CLICK HERE. (I skipped traits that were ambiguous or unclear in my understanding.)
PERSONAL APPEARANCE / HABITS TRAITS
(1) Dresses comfortably due to sensory issues – YES. I pretty much […]
In this picture you see me next to two yellow foods I ate for dinner while wearing my yellow pyjamas. On the left is pumpkin and leek soup. On the right […]
Today I am feeling sorry for myself so I decided to write about my experience of making friends in Turkey.
I have had enough international experience of living in different places to know that every place in the world has different social rules about friendship and making friends. When you move to a new country you can’t just expect it to be the same as what you are used to in you […]
I did something new yesterday. I sat through a panic attack (or is it an Asperger’s Syndrome meltdown?) without acting out my pattern of a lifetime. This post is about what these attacks feel like for me, and what I did differently the last time one happened.
FIRST, SOME BACKGROUND
For all my adult life I have tried to avoid the feeling of getting drained from social situations. In fact, the reason […]
A poem about ghosts (words below the video)…
When The Ghosts Come…
There are those among us
Who go a-hunting for them.
With torches in hand
And breaths held tight
At the stoke of midnight
in paranormal search they wend
Infra-red gizmos calibrated
To detect the unbodied
Those who were
Our once dear
And now, sadly departed kin
Stuck somewhere between
Here and there
Wandering and lost.
There are those among us
Who go a-talking with them
In sodden graveyards
By the light of the moon.
In secret ritual they invoke
With magical chants
Something a bit different: a sci-fi story about what it feels like to be me…
She and the others like her came because they had loved the humans from the beginning. Of course, all who agreed to come were warned about the dangers of the process but nobody could have known that it was going to be much, much harder than anticipated. In particular, they were not aware that they were going to be […]
Taking a look at the food in my fridge….
Today’s video is a comfort zone video where I make videos in new ways to challenge my perfectionism. Let’s have a look around my fridge and talk about the food I eat!
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Comfort Zone video playlist: CLICK HERE.
The Smoothie Video I mention in the video: CLICK HERE.
If you’ve been watching my videos or reading this blog for a while, you might be curious to know a little bit more about me. Although on the one hand my work may seem very personal because I talk openly about my psychological experiences and vulnerabilities (as I would to people I meet in real life), in my opinion my work is actually rather impersonal. I regard it as being impersonal as I […]
The last time it happened was a year ago… I was in a room with about 5 other people who were having a conversation in a language I could not understand. One person is dominating the conversation and the others aren’t really saying much. Inside me the frozen feeling begins to build. The more the guy talks, the more frozen I feel: like a trapped animal. The feeling inside me is getting angry now about this guy who won’t […]