The Introvert’s Shield

Some musings on introversion, agoraphobia, asperger’s and sensitivity.

It might be that I’m not really an introvert.
It’s because the world and its attractions doesn’t hold much appeal.

It might be that I’m not really a house hermit.
It’s just my aversion to factory farming conditions.

I think that I don’t have asperger’s.
It’s because I confused myself with constantly changing cultures and languages.

I suspect that I wasn’t born rootless and to float from here to there,
I suspect that all […]

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My Boring Real Voice

The difference between talking in my real voice and my ‘acting’ voice. 

To hear more about my real voice watch this related video: CLICK HERE. 

I can say now that I have come full circle with my voice – from learning how to change it and make it expressive – to coming back to my true voice.

What I didn’t say in the video was that it is more physically comfortable for me to […]

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Descent into the underworld

I’ve had the experience of living in many different places in my life, different countries, and each time the experience offered me a gift, in that it unlocked a part of my personality that I didn’t know before. Among the things I’ve learnt are to be able to feel a deep connection with nature (Nepal), social confidence (Dubai), and adventurousness of spirit (Amsterdam). But living in Turkey has been a different experience. What I’ve mainly […]

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A Toadstool Comes Up In a Night – Rossetti

Christina Rossetti Poem – English Romanticism Poetry

A toadstool comes up in a night, –
Learn the lesson, little folk: –
An oak grows on a hundred years,
But then it is an oak.

Christina Rossetti was one of the English Romantic era poets who wrote in a devotional style or made observations about the natural world in her writings.

In my understanding this poem suggests to us the spiritual importance of deferred gratification: the oak tree becomes a tall […]

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‘Clod and The Pebble’ By William Blake

William Blake’s poem ‘Clod and the Pebble’ from Songs of Innocence and Experience.

William Blake was a visionary poet whose poems could be interpreted in a number of ways according to symbolism and religious connotations. What this poem represents to me personally is the split that exists among humanity between those who seek to give and those who seek to take. Like many of Blake’s poems, there is opposition and binding […]

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London Under Bombardment (Poem)

London Under Bombardment by Greta Briggs. Featuring a selection of photographs of London from the late Victorian Era to the Blitz Period.

The poem personifies the spirit of London who stands indomitable despite the fall of bombs during the Blitz (bombing of London during the Second World War).

I, WHO am known as London, have faced stern times before,
Having fought and ruled and traded for a thousand years and more;
I knew the Roman legions and the […]

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My Shadow Selves

When I make videos, it’s not that unusual to get comments on the video like, “Jade, you’re such a nice person; you’ve got such a good heart; Wow, I wish I had a friend like you.” I get these kinds of comments, and therefore I want to address my shadow personalities in this post. And the purpose of doing this is to show by my own example that the personalities that we see on […]

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How I really Talk

How I speak in real life…

My real voice and speaking style is monotone and my face is lacking in expression as I speak. The reason that I do not naturally have an expressive voice or speaking style is due to my having Asperger’s Syndrome. I taught myself how to become more expressive via the process of making videos for this YouTube channel. If you look back at older videos you will see a […]

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Loneliness

I’ve been writing a series of posts in which I categorise different kinds of people into being empty people, half people, full people, or hermit people. And recently I realised that this is not something that most people can identify with, because it’s not how they experience socialising. I experience the social world in a very different way to most people. And part of my realisation has to do with my Asperger’s […]

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Who Are The Hermit People?

This post continues the theme of previous posts concerning full people, half people and hollow people. And I’m adding to the previous discussion a new group of people: the hermit people. The hermit people are those who have been saddened and hurt by their experiences out in the world, and they have withdrawn from the world to become hermit people.

I’ll begin with a story that I’ll come back to later. When I first […]

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A Rabbit as a King of Ghosts (Poem)

‘A Rabbit as a King of the Ghosts’ by Wallace Stevens with audio narration and illustration by me…

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How to Stop Being a Perfectionist with Writing

In my opinion and experience there are two kinds of perfectionism: one kind of perfectionism is the kind in which one is never satisfied with what is created, and the other kind is a blocked kind of perfectionism in which the perfectionist cannot even begin the task. This video talks specifically about the blocked kind of perfectionism and how to overcome it. The reflections are based on my own personal life experience.

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How The Cave Creeps Up on You (As You Know It Always Does)

I’ve been thinking it’s time to give you folks a cave update. I am currently in my introvert’s cave, where I have been hibernating (or hiding?) since the first of January 2016. This time it crept up slowly, and I willingly allowed it to happen. Another word for retreating to the introvert’s cave for days that turn into weeks that turn into months is agoraphobia. One of the underlying reasons agoraphobia develops is that you avoid […]

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The Empty Feeling of ‘Normal’ Friendship

This post describes the alienating feeling of ‘normal’ friendship from the perspective of someone (me) who scores highly in having traits of Asperger’s Syndrome. It seems to me that the empty feeling of normal friendship is something felt also by a small percentage of people who, unlike me, don’t have traits of Asperger’s Syndrome. I don’t know what to call this other group of people, but I think that we share something in common both in […]

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How an INTJ Thinks

A look inside the mind of an INTJ (Introversion, Intuition, Thinking, Judgement)…

Watch Part Two: CLICK HERE

The INTJ personality looks at the world by analysing it and breaking it down into patterns. When an INTJ encounters a problem, he or she will apply intuition and reasoning to find a solution. Sometimes this results in breakthrough moments and radical solutions. However, the endless thinking and analysing can also get the INTJ absolutely nowhere.

The thinking self of an INTJ […]

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